everything's changing, when I turn around...

Well the month of May has been one of change for me.

May 1st
Turned in our 30 days notice for our rent house
Found out I got a new job
Turned in my 2 weeks notice at the hospital

Throughout the month---
Looking desperately for a rent house that was in our budget and didn’t smell like pee.
Sorting through massive amounts of stuff and preparing for a garage sale
Trying to survive the last month of school and finals.

As of today May 13th
We put down a deposit on a rent house
I am done with finals
2 more days at Rivercrest and I begin my new job.

A new job, a new house and a month break from summer, what more could you ask for…
Well Mom always said you don‘t want “too much of a good thing”… and I think that now I believe her.
Although the changes in my life have been positive its been an extremely stressful time. Every time I close my eyes to sleep I have a nightmare of a terrible rent house or catastrophic event at the hospital. No matter how much I try to convince myself that I’m not stressed, by body begs to differ.

I have continually shifted my eyes up and given all the choices to God and I finally feel some weight lifted.
Thank you for being the King of my life and providing me with all these joys and opportunities.

“God-reality, God-initiative, God-provisions” Matt 6:33 ~The Message

For the past few weeks I’ve been striving to live toward a continuous walk with God. Not the occasional prayer and worship but a constant flowing conversation between me and father.
These words appear on the background of my computer…

“God-reality, God-initiative, God-provisions” Matt 6:33 ~The Message
These words strike a cord in my spirit. Life = God, not some of life = God.
God-reality. Everything in my life is a part of God. There are no certain “subjects” that we discuss, everything in my life (in my reality) should include God.
God-initiative. Why do we do the things we do? All words and actions should be for one purpose. God has called us to be his sons and instructed us how to live. So are we living to be “good” or living to be God-like.
God-provisions.
…Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat; or about your body, what you will wear…Consider how the lilies grow. They do not labor or spin. Yet I tell you, not even Solomon in all his splendor was dressed like one of these…
I can’t say it better than Jesus himself!

So these past few weeks I’ve been torn about my future and career. I’ve been praying “Lord place me in your plan and in your peace” As long as I’m in his plan I know he provides peace and that is what I need… PEACE. He shows himself faithful day after day, yet we doubt and we fear. I wish I could mature faster but I know its all in his plan.
The Lord blessed me with a new job that I will begin on the 18th of May. He has more than provided for me and I am so grateful.
Thank you Jesus for helping me step aside and let you in.