smack dab in the middle

It has been an interesting summer. Learning how to live with just one person has required some getting use to… For the length of my college life I’ve had anywhere from 2 to 5 roommates. While there is definitely less drama with just 1- it still requires adjusting. Erin (who just moved out in May) came to visit this weekend- quite fun, felt like old-times. I went with them to a college church group on Monday night. I normally do not go for various reasons but God really spoke to me through what was said last night.

The topic was “The Snare” which I automatically thought “I already know…” But God always has something to say if we are just open to listen-

The Pastor made the statement
“Evil takes hold because of our own evil desires” This got me to thinking…

*evil* is not necessarily something dirty or immoral but is anything that God is not part of!

Although I feel that I am ready for my white picket fence, husband and kids if I am not including God in my hopes and dreams they are as evil as leading a life of immorality.
I know my father has good things in store for me. - But how am I ever going to receive his gifts if I’m too busy trying to control and determine my life.
I can not count the times I have thought "I got this" to certain situations in my life- No matter the size or importance of a situation my alpha and omega should be smack dab in the middle of my daily life! When I think back... How dare I not include God in my little plans, the Lord who thought out every detail of every plant and species on the earth! But I say him: "Its no big deal!" How grateful I am that my Lord knows my faults and does not hold them against me-

When I realize these obvious things- I picture my Papa with this peculiar smile:

No impatience or annoyance- Just this smile that seems to say "silly kids"

This picture in my heart is the utmost vision of love-

This is my daily or even hourly desire-
To give the reigns of my life over to the creator of the universe.